I marvel at the common thread. The knowing of the darkness, the finding of an edge, the understanding that the it’s OK to stay there, if you need to, or maybe move on if the body has enough resource.
Knowing the moment when you can lift up
a corner of the comfort zone and push a little further - just as valid as the choosing or the needing of total rest. There must be a mysticism behind this that we all feel and share, there must be a knowing and a learning going on as a group, or why else would I think - Oh, so you know this territory too?
And hope, when you would think it should have been extinguished by now, still surprises you when you emerge like a mole blinking up into the light, and feel a wellspring of joy in your heart. You doubted you might ever feel peaceful with the sun on your face ever again. Yet here you are …… Or should I say - here I am ….
Andrea, this is beautiful. I am learning that it takes enormous courage to heal, to keep moving towards that light place while still honouring and accepting your limits. I am here with you in the journey. Thank you so much for being here with me too.
Thank you so much Jane. Working out how to keep kindling that force is an ongoing challenge and experiment, but when I can channel it and manifest it and it finds a way to move people, it means the world to me x
Yes. Oh...my. My visceral response to your profoundly vulnerable and remarkably beautiful words are to both weep and, at the same time, feel the warmth and the spreading glow of a sort of reflected pride, and rediscovery - does that make any sense? Brava, you!
Those lovely rocks... they are ancient, you know? Formed millions of years ago, kicking around for millennia, waiting for you to discover them and line them up just so. I feel the same way about rocks as I do about stars (although the light from stars is so ancient it breaks my brain, but so do rocks).
Happy holidays that bring such sweet family reunification, along with all good energy sent your way for reducing financial and health stressors. You carry so much weight with such. grace, such unceasing gratitude. Back to breath.... One giant but gentle bear hug from me.
**A wild guess - If it's gabapentin for nerve pain giving you problems, ask for a switch to pregabalin - Lyrica - newer formulation, fewer side effects, much better tolerated. (At least for me - 12 yrs lived experience with almost every kind of spinal issue, including cervical and including spondylosis, now waiting for 5th surgery, this time fusion. So it goes...but all to date have been successful, although still rugged. That's all, now you can DELETE the excruciating email I sent, please forgive!)
Wonderful, heart-full, kindest Linda - thank you. Your hard-won wisdom and generous guidance is enormously appreciated. Thank you for your beautiful care. It is a real comfort to me to have people who understand! Much love, always x
You are WONDERFUL. Your writing keeps getting better and better. You have given me such strength and peace. I read your book when I was pregnant with my daughter and it allowed me to imagine a good life as a disabled mother. Thank you, Josie
Thank you Naomi. It always takes me such a lot of courage to decide to hit post, (this one took me days of waiting to feel ready!) so warm responses like this really do mean a lot. Much love to you.
Oh …… Ah …….
I marvel at the common thread. The knowing of the darkness, the finding of an edge, the understanding that the it’s OK to stay there, if you need to, or maybe move on if the body has enough resource.
Knowing the moment when you can lift up
a corner of the comfort zone and push a little further - just as valid as the choosing or the needing of total rest. There must be a mysticism behind this that we all feel and share, there must be a knowing and a learning going on as a group, or why else would I think - Oh, so you know this territory too?
And hope, when you would think it should have been extinguished by now, still surprises you when you emerge like a mole blinking up into the light, and feel a wellspring of joy in your heart. You doubted you might ever feel peaceful with the sun on your face ever again. Yet here you are …… Or should I say - here I am ….
Andrea, this is beautiful. I am learning that it takes enormous courage to heal, to keep moving towards that light place while still honouring and accepting your limits. I am here with you in the journey. Thank you so much for being here with me too.
Your writing leaves me breathless. May the force (and whatever it else it takes) be with you for a long, long time.
Thank you so much Jane. Working out how to keep kindling that force is an ongoing challenge and experiment, but when I can channel it and manifest it and it finds a way to move people, it means the world to me x
Keep feeding that fire!
Yes. Oh...my. My visceral response to your profoundly vulnerable and remarkably beautiful words are to both weep and, at the same time, feel the warmth and the spreading glow of a sort of reflected pride, and rediscovery - does that make any sense? Brava, you!
Those lovely rocks... they are ancient, you know? Formed millions of years ago, kicking around for millennia, waiting for you to discover them and line them up just so. I feel the same way about rocks as I do about stars (although the light from stars is so ancient it breaks my brain, but so do rocks).
Happy holidays that bring such sweet family reunification, along with all good energy sent your way for reducing financial and health stressors. You carry so much weight with such. grace, such unceasing gratitude. Back to breath.... One giant but gentle bear hug from me.
**A wild guess - If it's gabapentin for nerve pain giving you problems, ask for a switch to pregabalin - Lyrica - newer formulation, fewer side effects, much better tolerated. (At least for me - 12 yrs lived experience with almost every kind of spinal issue, including cervical and including spondylosis, now waiting for 5th surgery, this time fusion. So it goes...but all to date have been successful, although still rugged. That's all, now you can DELETE the excruciating email I sent, please forgive!)
Wonderful, heart-full, kindest Linda - thank you. Your hard-won wisdom and generous guidance is enormously appreciated. Thank you for your beautiful care. It is a real comfort to me to have people who understand! Much love, always x
You are WONDERFUL. Your writing keeps getting better and better. You have given me such strength and peace. I read your book when I was pregnant with my daughter and it allowed me to imagine a good life as a disabled mother. Thank you, Josie
Ines! Thank you! This was such a tonic to read. Wishing you and your family much, much love x
Your perspective is always a tonic, just wonderful
Thank you Naomi. It always takes me such a lot of courage to decide to hit post, (this one took me days of waiting to feel ready!) so warm responses like this really do mean a lot. Much love to you.